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Oleh -

Hidup dalam lingkaran kecurigaan bikin energi habis. Tiap hari ada aja yang dijadiin bahan bakar untuk bertikai. Udah jengah banget. Udah all out ngasih apapun, tapi tetep dianggep bajingan. 

Sekali bajingan tetep bajingan. Hidup bajingan! (baca: gw bajingan)

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Oleh -
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