Catatan Riki Akbar

Today, another confession I guess It's 17 minutes away to the midnight and yet I'm still staring at your pictures I don't know why but seeing your smile is so relaxing and comforting tonight In your smile, I find nothing except your beauty I don't know, just by staring at your pictures, I feel so peaceful I really want to smile and cry at the same time I don't know, I don't have any explanation for this I love you, you know that for sure but what you don't know is the 'love' word is only the simplified form of saying: - I want to be by your side forever and ever - I want to hear your stories all night long - I want to kiss your forehead when you fall asleep - I want to stare at your sleeping face until the dawn comes - I want to laugh with you - I want to run my hand over your eyes just when your tear is about to drop - I want to see your smile for the rest of my life - I want to sit by our bed when you feel unwell - I want, I ...

Tomorrow will be marked as another crucial point of my life. For the first time, I will pay a visit, not an ordinary one though It's extremely important It's going to be a big day I can't help myself freezing right now I am extremely nervous at the moment I don't want to ruin it So, I organize a detailed arrangement From selecting my best options in terms of outfit to determining the most reasonable route to her place I am spending my entire afternoon just to think possibilities and figure out ways to overcome them, just in case. I love her very much, much more than I love myself So, I want to make sure everything will run smoothly and the rest, Let Allah decides. Wish me luck, everyone. PS: Wina, I love you, darling. I love you so much.

Sayang, berapa kali pun engkau menanyakan, bagiku engkaulah yang tercantik berapa kali pun engkau ragu, aku akan jadi yang terdepan mengatakan bahwa kau cantik dengan caramu tak peduli dengan potongan rambut dan bobot badanmu, aku hanya ingin denganmu tak sadarkah engkau, betapa anggunnya Allah ciptakan dirimu? begitulah dirimu di mataku Senyum yang lama hilang kini telah kembali Aku tak bisa menahan diri untuk menatap wajahmu lekat-lekat kau tak pernah dengar suara hatiku membisikkan syukur berkali-kali kau tak pernah melihat ada bulir airmata bahagia menyelinap di balik kacamataku kau tak pernah tahu betapa basah sajadahku meminta kepada-Nya untuk disandingkan denganmu Jangan pedulikan apa yang orang katakan ketahuilah, ada pria yang ingin menghabiskan seluruh waktunya denganmu, memuliakan dirimu dan memastikan pertemuan ini tidak berakhir di dunia saja Aku ingin bersamamu melintasi dimensi ruang dan waktu yang fana Aku ingin menua, mati, dan dihidupkan kembali hanya...

I know there are bunch of confessions I had written but still, to me, you are the centre of my inspiration lake  I have never been this calm, not as far as I could recall I have never been so in love, not as far as I could remember with you, everything seems to be different with you, every single day offers a whole new experience and we are yet to discover what life's going to be But, truly my dear Wina, I have never been this sure to spend my entire life by your side and I really hope that you share the same feeling You are the only one I want to see when I open my eyes in the morning You are the only one I always think of when I drag my body off my bed I know you might get tired of all these confessions I can't help myself from writing more confessions and I'm really glad I can't stop doing this I have no intention to stop afterall In conclusion, ma'am: I love you so much.

I know you can do it this time. Of all rejections and failures, I can feel your pain. But let me take those pain and swallow it for you. Tell me a story. Tell me stories. I love you. So, tell me your story. I've been loving you for a long time and I don't want to stop at any point. So, I'll be with you, through all good times and bad times. I'm with you. Just don't give up. People come and go, but not me. I'm here for you. I love you, Wina, more than the 'love' itself So, Good luck! Sincerely, your lover and huge admirer.

It's thursday already, well I stand corrected, It's officially Friday early morning and before heading to bed, I need to write another confession. Dear Wina, I'm staring at your beauty through a photograph As Stevie Wonder said, you are the apple of my eye I love the way you told me stories of anything you are the light of my day, shining through my mobile phone, healing my daily pain Maybe, maybe I'm running out of words to describe what I'm feeling at the moment I don't want to stop though World is kind of losing its friendliness lately But that doesn't stop you from being lovely and I'm running out of words to describe how badly I want to be with you, spending our entire life on a new adventure against this cruel cruel world. I would do anything for you. I want to ease your pain. I want to love you, comprehensively. It might sounds cliche. But I'm going to say it anyway. I love you more.

Terlelaplah dengan nyaman, sayangku Letih dan lelah yang membekapmu akan pamit undur diri besok pagi Gurat wajah manismu saat menahan kantuk memang tidak terlihat namun bukan berarti bayanganmu tidak hadir di dalam kamarku Mungkin aku yang terlalu rindu rindu pada senyummu yang magis rindu pada seluruh atribut yang ada pada dirimu maafkan aku yang sering cemburu rindu yang menggumpal bersama hasrat ingin melindungimu kadang menguak tabir kekonyolanku Aku benar-benar ingin menghabiskan waktuku denganmu Dan di tengah heningnya minggu dini hari ini Di tengah labirin mimpi yang mendekapmu malam ini, aku mencari dirimu dalam setiap lembar ingatanku