Trespassing.

I'm not justifying the way I behave. But again, I'm not a people pleaser by nature. Hence, on minor occasions, I have to act the way I used to act in order to preserve my own sanity. Life is hard already and your sanity could fly at any point of time. I intend to keep it that way, my routines.

Most of the time, I do respect people and their own choice. I am terrible at putting myself in a confronting position toward other people. Oftentimes, I let my inner thought be oppressed to give space for others' perspectives. But again, people need to understand that I need my own space sometimes, just to recharge and restore my own idealism and thoughts. You cannot compare yourself to anyone as it could be very painful to swallow and I hate that, pretty much.

Knowing everything runs differently at the moment, I am willing to accept and adapt. But again, I just need a tiny slice of my time to re-heal and re-assign all my stuff to the place they truly belong to. It takes only a couple of minutes or hours. Just be patient. 

In 'that time', you can see my true inner. An introvert-stubborn-selfish kind of guy. Seeing my inner self is not a pleasant experience, I can tell you that. But again, all you have to do is waiting a little longer and all of a sudden, I will be your 'yes man' again.

It's not that difficult, isn't it?

In 'that time', please do not take anything of me seriously. Please, just wait after that 'backup process' completes.

Life is tough for me and through that toughness, I will always be at your service. Again, just give me a tiny slice of time to reboot. Everything will back to normal afterwards.

Today, it takes longer. You just ripped my self-pride off. Damaged in most parts. Think I will have my mental wellbeing fractured now.

London,

staring at the old picture of my late father. How I miss you very much, Yah!